I am rejuvenated...
Ahhhh...."Jaytime" appeared to me in the form of three hours of solitide on an overcast Sunday morning in May....I cleared up the bills, picked up around the house, folded some laundry, and sat on the balcony, just thinking....it felt so great. And when the hecticness of life picked right back up around 1 o'clock, I felt totally refreshed and well, rejuvenated. Just the time to do some chores that have been sitting in the back of my mind is all the time I need...just a few hours to myself, about myself. That's all I need to function...
Humanity
I've lost a lil bit of faith in humanity by the occurence of an event this past weekend. Someone I really care about was hurt by some idiots that had no sense at all...my God, there are just some people in this world that don't have a clue...unfortunately. They take advantage of people, they deceive, and just do bad things. I hate when things like this happen, because I instantly become suspicious of every single person as if the whole world was evil. But it's not...we live in a world where good and evil constantly are butting heads. From my experience, I would like to continue believing that GOOD is winning...and as with all other things that happen in life, I gotta see past the bad and look for the good in others. Yeah, not everyone can be trusted, and to those people, the only thing I can say is that their day will come.
Idealism
I think sometimes that I get way to caught up in this idealistic plan I have for myself. And that doesn't only pertain to one aspect of my life, but to every single part of it...friendships, family, career, even relationship stuff. Supposedly, there exists this "way" that "things are supposed to happen." This idealistic, romanticized way that, for example, "the best romantic relationships sprout from those rooted in solid friendships..." Well, being a firm believer of not expecting things to go exactly according to plan or as expected, I have totally neglected that belief in being so idealistic. There's a difference in maintaining a certain type of idealism and living out that idealism. Yes, IDEALLY, I would like things to happen the way I hope...but REALISTICALLY, we all should know that they won't. There's a bigger picture out there, and I constantly fail to observe that. Carpe Deim, do I not say that to people yet not pratice it myself? So here's to Seizing the Day...stepping out of my comfort zone and reaching out to do the unexpected. Yes, I consider myself in the genre of the spontaneous type, yet there are some realms which I have not yet allowed myself to explore...
It's raining today...I love the rain. You don't really feel like being active...sorry, corrections, it's ME who doesn't feel like doing anything. It makes you...me just wanna curl up under a blanket and watch a movie...or just chill @ home w/ friends or significant others, but a big iksnay on the sig. others thang. And after the rain, well, it is so nice and refreshing. I wish it rained a lil more often...
Ahhhh...."Jaytime" appeared to me in the form of three hours of solitide on an overcast Sunday morning in May....I cleared up the bills, picked up around the house, folded some laundry, and sat on the balcony, just thinking....it felt so great. And when the hecticness of life picked right back up around 1 o'clock, I felt totally refreshed and well, rejuvenated. Just the time to do some chores that have been sitting in the back of my mind is all the time I need...just a few hours to myself, about myself. That's all I need to function...
Humanity
I've lost a lil bit of faith in humanity by the occurence of an event this past weekend. Someone I really care about was hurt by some idiots that had no sense at all...my God, there are just some people in this world that don't have a clue...unfortunately. They take advantage of people, they deceive, and just do bad things. I hate when things like this happen, because I instantly become suspicious of every single person as if the whole world was evil. But it's not...we live in a world where good and evil constantly are butting heads. From my experience, I would like to continue believing that GOOD is winning...and as with all other things that happen in life, I gotta see past the bad and look for the good in others. Yeah, not everyone can be trusted, and to those people, the only thing I can say is that their day will come.
Idealism
I think sometimes that I get way to caught up in this idealistic plan I have for myself. And that doesn't only pertain to one aspect of my life, but to every single part of it...friendships, family, career, even relationship stuff. Supposedly, there exists this "way" that "things are supposed to happen." This idealistic, romanticized way that, for example, "the best romantic relationships sprout from those rooted in solid friendships..." Well, being a firm believer of not expecting things to go exactly according to plan or as expected, I have totally neglected that belief in being so idealistic. There's a difference in maintaining a certain type of idealism and living out that idealism. Yes, IDEALLY, I would like things to happen the way I hope...but REALISTICALLY, we all should know that they won't. There's a bigger picture out there, and I constantly fail to observe that. Carpe Deim, do I not say that to people yet not pratice it myself? So here's to Seizing the Day...stepping out of my comfort zone and reaching out to do the unexpected. Yes, I consider myself in the genre of the spontaneous type, yet there are some realms which I have not yet allowed myself to explore...
It's raining today...I love the rain. You don't really feel like being active...sorry, corrections, it's ME who doesn't feel like doing anything. It makes you...me just wanna curl up under a blanket and watch a movie...or just chill @ home w/ friends or significant others, but a big iksnay on the sig. others thang. And after the rain, well, it is so nice and refreshing. I wish it rained a lil more often...
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